July 2011
I think this Anonymous person really likes me
She messaged me a few times asking me to go to some website to see her naked. I bet she’s hot!
Pretty sure you've always wanted to see me naked.. Well.. I'm feeling pretty adventurous today so go to datelink6(dot)com (switch [dot] with .) then sign up and find my profile under the username 'lolsummer69'. I hid my face in the pictures. but I want you to guess who I am and then hit me up on Facebook lol. Good luck.
lol. Obvious spam is obvious. BUT I WANNA SEE THE N00DZ SO I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE! (dumb. This is dumb)
My Mom wants me to try to get a sleep study soon. I don’t know how to feel about that. It might be worth it to find out why the fuck I can never sleep at night. And when I do fall asleep why I wake up 20 to 30 minutes later without being able to fall back to sleep. I honestly can’t remember the last time I had a good night’s sleep. Either way, I don’t think a sleep study will be very useful. Even if they find out what’s wrong and put me on medication, I don’t think I’ll want to take it. What the fuck’s the point of sleep if it’s not natural? Also, I have this terrible fear about taking medication to fall asleep…what if it doesn’t really work the way it’s supposed to? Well I mean, what if it works and puts me to sleep but I have a night terror? What if I get paralyzed when my body is medically under and I can’t shake myself awake? Is that possible? I don’t think I could mentally handle being stuck in that awful, awful state for 8 hours or however long it takes for the medicine to wear off. To finally be able to wake myself up. I think it would finally succeed in driving me absolutely crazy.
“You mean everything. I don’t know much, but a crutch is a crutch if it’s holding you from moving on.”
—Manchester Orchestra
“I’ll ‘slowpoke’ him.”
—Kitty Pryde, X-Men Evolution. (God, why does that give me a boner)
My Mom just told me she feels like all is right with the world. Good God, I wish I felt that way.
“I swear that I can go on forever again. Please let me know that my one bad day will end. I will go down as your lover; your friend. Give me your lips and with one kiss it begins.”
—Lost Without You
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And now, thanks to Shelby, I am watching Xmen Evolution on YouTube. I was just thinking about how bummed I kind of am for not going to a real college, but now I realize, fuck that because it would never have lived up to my expectations of life at Professor Xavier’s School for Gifted Youngsters.
